I almost forgot my password to this thing....

So maybe its time to part with xanga forever considering my life (how sad) is tied up with facebook and myspace.

Overall I guess you could say that my life hasn't been turning out exactly as I planned it to be.

I am someone different....someone different then I even i intended myself to be.

And I guess thats okay...

I feel now as if I lost my old friends

And I was parted from my new ones too.

But I will pull forward again

I just lost my balance

There a lots of things I have yet to learn....

And there are lots of things I want to do and accomplish

Hopefully I'll find my footing.

The one good thing xanga does have to offer to me is the person who I was...I've been using this thing since what? Ninth grade....and a whole 4 years later my online diary is still intact...lol

So  I guess it wasn't a complete waste of my time haha

Overall, I guess I'm just looking forward to what life has to offer me...

I'm going to reconnect with myself again...

I'm going to travel around the world and broaden my horizons

I'm going to find my friends again whoever and where ever they may be

My relationship with my boyfriend is going to better than it has been as of late.

Because I love him, because I love them, and because I love life (even the shitty times)

I won't be lost forever.

This I can promise you.

So many times I think...man its hard to be thankful when there is so much shit in the world to deal with....but I guess I am thankful nonetheless....

I'm thankful for the wonderful boyfriend that I have, than even when I can be a complete bitch or whatever, he still loves me regardless, and even when he is being an ass I can look at him and still remember why I love him so much despite it all.

I'm thankful for such a wonderful best friend, I know that sometimes I screw up and I'm not completely 100% there for her, like I should be, and I'm sorry, but I'm thankful I have someone like her to kick me in the ass haha.

I'm thankful for all my wonderful friends, the new ones, and the old ones, the people that I can count on....the ones who will tell me the truth even when I don't want it...because thats what true friends do right?

Even though its been hard, I'm thankful for my parents, for making me such a strong person...even tho sometimes they make me feel weak....

I'm thankful that God trusts me so much, even though sometimes I think he's making a mistake...I'm stronger than I give my self credit for...

I'm thankful that whatever steps I take, and that whatever wrong turns I make I'm never completely lost, even tho sometimes everything feels hopeless....

I've learned a lot since I've graduated and since I've been away...I've learned a lot about myself, the type of woman i'm becoming, the type of person I want to be, and the kind of heart I have...hopefully it will help me become a better person.

I'm just thankful...thankful for breathing, thankful for being able to experience life...all bad things included...because without the bad stuff, there would be no reason to celebrate the good.

And its all starting to fall into place....oh the relief!!!

Life can be confusing....but dammit its a beautiful thing.